Most of the time, I am an upbeat and happy person. I try to be easy going and not let anything get me down for long. That's why this school year is proving to be a real challenge for me. I am beginning my 18th year as a Language Arts teacher. Instead of getting easier (with experience), it has gotten more difficult.
There are some mornings that I wake up and feel physically queasy, worrying about what the day will bring. I worry if my lessons will "work" for all of the different levels of students that I have. I worry that I might get evaluated at a moment where my students are not at their best. I worry about students who might be struggling and not asking for help. There are just so many things that could happen in the course of the day.
I love my job, but sometimes the pressure of it is more than I feel like I can take. I really try to take each day moment by moment and just deal with each situation as it arises.
On Saturday morning, Hugh Freeze, coach of the Ole Miss Rebels tweeted out this:
I know that dealing with teenagers (especially more than 100 of them a day) is always going to be a challenge. I know that my job will never be easy, and some days will be more difficult than others. I also know that I am one of the only kind faces that some of these kids see in a day. So for right now, I will carry on just as I do in running....one step at a time...knowing that I am ready!