Over the last few days, I have made a conscious effort to let go of negative thoughts and self doubt. Earlier in the week, I had planned today's lesson for my students. It was something that I knew would be difficult for me to teach and difficult for them to learn. I knew it was going to be tough. So when I got to work this morning, I thought to myself: "Let's just forget that and do something a little easier today."
I caught myself right then. I was thinking negatively, and choosing the easy way out (instead of facing what I knew really needed to be done). Then, I tried to get to the root of my negative thinking:
- Could I teach this material in a way that my students could understand it? (self doubt)
- It would be easier to give them work that wouldn't be as challenging. (path of least resistance)
- What if they can't do it at all, and the lesson blows up in my face? (path of least resistance)
It was weird that I stopped myself in my tracks and went through this thought process. Normally, I would have busted out those worksheets and not thought twice about it. Not today. Not anymore!
I went ahead with the lesson, and lo and behold, this has been one of the *best* days in my teaching career. My students met the challenge head-on, and felt a strong sense of accomplishment when the work was complete. All of them were running up to my desk to show me their work. They were proud, and so was I.